Ain's Real Life

2011-11-06T19:18:00.001+08:00

the end of semester is so near.. and i still have a lot of work to settle before the year-end holidays come.

what i have gone through this year was so overwhelmingand even thinking over it was also exciting.

i took 3 months maternity leave, nursing my lil baby, having a new workplace, and facing the most testing rascals through the number of years i have been in my line of work.

those things make me smile or make me sigh sometimes. just that i try to make sure i forget the bads and go to sleep with clear head and start fresh the next morning

.2012, i am nervous to meet you.

but meanwhile i want to spend my time and money shopping at every year-end sale hehehe while 2011 is lasting.

love love love

2011-10-13T12:14:00.001+08:00

i'm a mother now, umm... YAYYYYYY!!!

finally Allah answered my prayers, thanks to Allah.

now, when my husband is away at work, i spend my evenings with my little Pearl or Wani. i love her so dearly.

If i could

2010-07-30T10:42:00.000+08:00

i want to erase some parts of my history, change it to be more worth memorable. Those ugly mistakes i had made, made me looking back with hate to myself.

I sing in the car

2010-06-21T22:06:00.001+08:00

i dont drive. My bf will do that task while i carry much more important task - sing or singalong to songs being aired on the radio or the CD/ Usb. i think my bf has been so patient with my singing all this while. There was once, i put Bitter Heart by Zee Avi on repeated track, and i sang to it over and over again with different kind of style - rock, soprano, childish, and in Kedah accent. He didnt complain! He sings too most of the time, sometimes together with me and there are times too that i just keep quiet and enjoy his singing.

this is by Jason Mraz, my bf's fav male singer cus he writes wonderful songs. I listen to him too most of the time.

this is what i look like today
and i'm trying not to pull out my hair
i'm trying not to show it cause i'm far too shy to grow it back there
that's probably why i like wearing hats
there's no denying i'm deferring the facts
avoiding confrontation
lacks tact in a situation
behind every line is a lesson yet to learn

but if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is overwhelming
and oh it goes to show
i've so much to know

i wrote this for my prettiest friend
who while trying not to prove that i care
trying not to make all my moves in one motion and scare her away
well she can't see she's making me crazy now
i don't believe she knows she's amazing how
she has me holding my breathe
so i'd never guess that i'm a none such unsuitable, suitable for her

but if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is complimentery
and oh it goes to show
the moral of the story is boy loves girl
and so on the way that it unfolds is yet to be told

i know that i should be brave
even pretty can be seen by the blind
i know that i cannot wait
until the day we finally learn how to find each other
redefining open minds

and if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is overjoyed
and it's golden, it goes to show then
the ending of this song should be left alone
and so on cause the way it unfolds is yet to be told

How should i combat boredom?

2010-06-16T20:46:00.001+08:00

I have a pretty boring life or so i believe. I feel bored every now and then. I do a lot everyday, but when the same things go on and on and on and on and on... i end up feel boring again.

Actually i get bored easily from any kind of routine. I'm a Gemini.

What i do everyday is just the same. I wake up and do laundry, do laundry until 3 to 4 rounds (since i just came back to my home; a lot of things need to be cleaned. The bedlinens are all dusty and smell bad).

Then i take my breakfast and watch television while reading my old magazines. Then, i still do my laundry. I eat my lunch in front of the tv and dinner also. At times i switch on my lappy and look for anything interesting on the internet. I read, watch tv, go on the internet, nap too, one after another and this go on and on and sooo onnn.

I need a new hobby that is practical for a mum-to-be. Something that wouldn't endanger my health or safety or too time consuming.

I'm Going To be a MOM!!

2010-05-07T23:33:00.003+08:00

No one would have predicted that this year, i will be celebrating Mother's Day as a mom-to-be. Yeehaww. LOL i'm not even a cowgirl. But..but.. I'm totally delighted!! Who wouldnt if they are in my shoes right now.

I did the test yesterday .. at work.. cause i just couldnt wait until the next morning. I got the kit from a very very close friend of mine- we used to be working in the same session. And, my colleague who sits next to me encouraged me to just do it then since i was just restless and couldn't do any of my work.

It was my first test since like thousand years ago. I didnt wait for that long. there was one very clear visible line and another very vague one. Well, since i had put my mind not to put high hopes before that test, i just accepted it. For one moment i thought i just wanted to throw it away, luckily i didnt.

Half an hour after that, Cik Nun and Kak Mah came back to their places which was just right behind mine. They were eating.

I showed to them my unaccomplished mission - the test kit - confidently saying that it was just not my luck yet.

I didnt expect at all she would say that the result was actually positive. OFC, ummm ... it didnt look like 2 stripes.. more like 1 and 1/2 stripes.. (the other line was so vague) -.-""

And today at work, suddenly everyone was spreading the words while i just couldn't say anything much. i wanted to wait until i see the doctor. My friend, Azlena even predicted my due.. on 8th january 2011.

So after work today i went to the doctor. He gave me the news that me and my boy wanted to hear. I had mixed feelings, joy and nervousness. My boy shed a tear of joy. Everything was beautiful. The doctor's room seemed so bright and even the doctor looked so handsome. The doc told me that i will due on 7th January 2011.

I hope everything is going to be fine. If.. IF.. if it's not meant to be yet, i will accept it. But i will surely pray so so hard.

me and kids

2010-05-07T05:08:00.005+08:00

i come from a big family with 8 siblings. all my sisters are married but i still have 2 bachelor brothers. they who have their own family have many kids as well. my eldest sister has 4 kids, then my two elder brothers, 4 daughters; 2 daughters and 3 sons respectively, and then my two elder sisters, 1 girl and 3 boys; 3 girls and 2 boys respectively. and then me...not yet so far.

my boy is the eldest child. his younger brother has 1 baby boy. 2010 baby.

so genetically, we should have a lot of kids too. that's by theory only and neither of us have really gone for thorough check-ups.

being the youngest among my other siblings, all my nieces and nephews are close to me. when i was younger, i play a lot with my little nieces and nephews. but now, i feel a little different when i stay close to kids. i like them still especially babies, but i have a weird feeling because deep inside i keep thinking that my time should ve come to be a mom myself.

yes, Allah is the Almighty. i hope He will grant us some healthy kids soon.

Starting in january 2010, i have been taking care of my health. I am more relaxed compared to before. i try to stay positive and talking about the issue happily and positively. i marked on my calendar regularly each month. i can see a pattern that i have a regular cycle. i think my body is ready.

this month, i hope my luck is finally here. but it's too soon to tell. Just wish me luck ^^ !!

Weekend Checklist

2010-05-01T04:43:00.007+08:00

I hate working on Saturdays. The people from my workplace love saturdays i think because they organize something almost every saturday. Some lucky teachers they get to work every saturday if they are involved with each programme including this Saturday - Labour Day !!

*glares eyes*

*smiles*
This saturday is a work-free saturday for me. Yeah!!

I already have a checklist on things that i want to do.

1. I have to visit my sister in Banting. Me and my boy had made a promise last two weeks to her youngest princess that we would come to visit her but we couldnt last week. She's so close to my boy and he adores her.

2. I want to try something new like cupcakes decorating. but i'm that sure about this one yet. i have to look at more examples. a bit costly.

3. I want to make an artwork out of milk cans. i already can imagine the final result that they can be multipurpose decorated cans. all i have to have are just strong will and creativity.

ps. ! Oh. i forgot to call my friend from the workplace. her husband was sent to the hospital yesterday evening. i wanted to call her earlier but i was busy with class and my phone ran out of credit. hhuhu :P

hello again

2010-04-14T20:18:00.003+08:00

over and over again, i left and came back.

i do love this, this blog. cause it's mine. but for so many times i got distracted or lost motivation or just didnt have enough time to do this.

sometimes things around us help us to get back on track.

my boy said to me yesterday that he wanted to start a blog.

"Oh," said I, looking at him.

He was inspired with redmummy, the famous blogger. well. she wasnt the first, but they made a scoop about her as a blogger who made it.

That wasnt the first time he wanted to make a blog too. He said something like that awhile before.

Yes, i read the article about redmummy too. i was inspired aswell. i know i have one blog (abandoned one). However i didnt do a thing about it just yet.

And yesterday, a co-worker wanted to start one for her business. I thought it was a great idea. i always wanted to do that, unfortunately i never had any product :).

That inspired me too. Eventhough i still dont have any product, but i want to write again.

demo

2009-11-18T15:01:00.003+08:00

demo

speedy

2009-10-28T10:46:00.003+08:00

i'm speeding man. speeding.

the glory is right ahead.

arghhh.

Perhaps i can run slowly and watch the scenery if there is 48 hours a day .

lol

Counting weeks

2009-10-22T23:33:00.003+08:00

Two weeks ago. It was PMR week so i had to leave classes on that Monday. So meaning i had to skip 2 art classes ( which i only had on Mondays) and 1 English class.

Exam is near.

But last week it was Deepavali. The school took 4 days off starting from the previous Friday until Monday.

Exam is near.

This Saturday we will be having our graduation ceremony at PICC, Putrajaya for the senior classes, form 5 and form 6 students. the school is taking another day break which is this coming Monday Ofc.

OMG. exam is near for goodness sake.

but..
who doesnt love holidays?
there can never be too much of holidays, right?

because of that, i had to slot in (syyy) more than one topic when i saw the kids.

well about the graduation day.

lucky them the students, which i found not that far in comparison to the batch of my years in school, are having their graduation ceremony this coming Saturday . i didnt have any graduation day when i finished my secondary school. lucky me, i graduated at the uni. [too bad i didnt attend the last day at my kindergarten.]

kids at my school have the chance to attend the graduation ceremony organized exclusively for them. most of the kids, yes, they deserve it because they work hard to get the As. it is a way for the school to appreciate the hard work and achievements of the students. Of course in the same time it is a reflection of the hard work of the educators too.

on the other side, the ceremony is a motivation for the kids with weaker performance to work harder for the grades. Of course the kids who attend the ceremony are the selected ones.

well kids, class of 2009, good luck and we will meet again when the time comes.

it's september again

2009-09-12T17:30:00.002+08:00

we'll be celebrating eid soon,
i wish all of you a good and blissful ramadhan and shawal.

selamat hari raya aidilfitri dan maaf zahir batin

ain.

a new chapter

2009-06-05T01:13:00.002+08:00

so things are a little dfferent now i must say.

new boss, a couple of friends will be sent to the morning session. a few friends got some new workloads.

as for me a little bit of the stereotype, which what i need the most.
God knows how i can't handle shock.
So it is really what people say, God knows best.

2 weeks break is running pointless when my internet breaks down, sure for a person like me who is an addict in front of the net days and nights.

it has been 4 days and i am calling them like 4 times a day when i see no progress at all. the last call i made to the system staff, i went angry and almost shouting because there was again the word that he said. "WAIT".
i dont think i like the word at all anymore. i can wait, or anyone can always wait when you know why you wait. they told me they would call but no one did. i was the one who kept on calling. i went impatient. really. seriously. so angry i felt like bombing the whole office.

again.
God knows best?
sure.
but i just need an answer.
and i can wait.

you will be missed.

2009-05-29T04:17:00.002+08:00

You will be missed